From the Journal of Anne Lister
15th April 1832
Met Captain Cameron. She asked him to dinner. The murder is out. We talked it over, she will not say ‘no’, so it is done… What a sudden change for us all, for me too. She will go to Italy, but not with me. Well, tho’ I made my eyes very red with crying before dinner, I already begin to think it is better. She would have left me in the lurch.